Decadron

today is NOT a good day

it would seem that the
steriods i am on
have had an interesting effect
on my brain

do the goods outweigh
the bads?

we halved my steriods weeks ago
because little old me
was not doing well
i started falling more
dr asked yesterday
an aha moment indeed
quartered them on sunday
and now i am
even weaker and shakier than before

my brain is swelling from the
radiation
yet the steroids are not doing their job
completely
or
are they?

do i just need to ride the wave for
three more weeks
and succumb to the fatigue,
moon face, and swollen ankles
tremors, shaking, weakness
i feel
or is it brain damage
i have suffered instead
and only NOW just rearing its
head

don't worry
we see doctor on thursday

i have not lost sight of my mission

wish me luck!

time for a nap.