i had brain surgery

my world fell apart
everyone said i was acting so weird
i kept crying a lot
so so so much

faye suggested last friday
that i get my tail in there
be proactive
take the bull by the horns

the cat scan showed that it had in fact grown
i have staples in my head
multiple glioma
the most aggressive,
but also the most treatable

dr mcdreamy did my surgery
i sat in there for nearly a week
now they have me at a hospital for rehab,
fortunately close to home to home
(as opposed the one which was far)
i start my treatments radiation, chemo
at yet another hospital
hopefully i will be out of here too
and can begin the healing process
at home

i have a team working with me
my friends and neighbors have all been wonderful
everyone comes by to offer their condolences
and food.
i don't want their pity
i just want my dignity

i am scared
i am worried that i won't see my kids grow up
walk them down the aisle
kiss my first grandchild

i miss my old friend
i wish i could share this with him
perhaps i can