the rest of my life

from here on out
from this point forward
i shall try to LIVE my life as best as i can
make the commitment to being well
eating right, consuming all my minerals and supplements
be all that i can be, for as long as i can
as long as it takes
(2022)

yet i find myself
impatient
unable to understand or convey
how i feel
by all the attention, the accolades, the words of praise,
and all the worried faces
the words escape me
even my poetry has waned

does this mean I don’t have the words
inside me
to understand just
what is next?

Or have I yet to understand the bigger picture,
the here-on-out
what awaits me in the
distant,
and not too distant future?
i wish i could see that far....