a bittersweet surprise

yesterday i had my final fitting
for my plastic mesh mask
they are making all the final marks on it
it will hold my head in place
clamped down
it took what seemed like
forever

but then,
they offered me an opportunity
to get started with my
treatments
right away
was i interested?
it would make it a long day,
but we could get started
NOW
then the chemo pills last nite
to top it off

i jumped
bring it on
lets get this party started!

i was most anxious
the chemo drug was the unknown
but i made it thru the nite
without hurling
the first nite is supposed to be the worst
i feel extremely funky today
headache, sore thoat, shakey
but otherwise OK
(and s-l-o-w)

10:45 daily is my radiation
for six weeks, five days a week.
i will lose my hair in big old splotches
on both sides of my head.
how lovely
good thing i look good in hats